No hair, but fashioned up a topknot of a kind. After the second of 6 treatments, things are going pretty well. I had a weird, new symptom of sharp, shooting, random pains from my ankles up to both knees. No rhyme or reason or pattern. I also had a very down couple of days of how tired and broken I felt about this cancer experience, as in this is harder than it's been before and I'm more worried about what's going on during the process. Stephen reminded me that I've been fighting this crap for seven years and that I'm not in my thirties anymore, so of course it's going to be more difficult!
T he week after that difficult night, I met up at a 504 meeting for my 2nd grader's dyslexia program and accommodations. I had a powerful mom moment over that, too, because I followed my mother's intuitions and advocated for that child, a 2nd grader who has struggled with reading and writing and arithmetic with reading of any kind and I am the one who got the ball rolling on testing identifying. I started to think about how this is a good thing for this child, and it might not have gotten going without my influence. If the ONLY reason I am still around was to help my son with a school disability, I have a great reason to still be here.
Later that day, I had a dentist appointment. From the very beginning of my cancer battle, I was told by all my dentists to be vigilant with brushing gnat flossing, especially while on chemotherapy, as that can decay your teeth. As those reminders weighed heavy on my mind over the last seven years, I was also shown what a blessing it is that I have not have any cavities or other needed dental work during the time I've been fighting cancer. What a blessing that is, that I Don't have more financial or painful procedures, even when practically promised that I would. It's a small blessing with wide reaches that shows me a specific way that God is watching over me, and helps me to see His blessings in my life. I also know that, even when this journey is quite difficult, I am watched over, prayed over, and never alone.