I LOVE birthdays, particularly my own. I'm the type of person who will countdown the number of months until my next birthday, celebrate my half-birthday, and truly enjoy the real day when it finally arrives. It's not even about stuff--it's more about having a day that is my own. Maybe this comes from growing up in a big family and having to share/rotate everything--ONE BATHROOM, the "good spots" on the couch/in the car, games/toys, tv shows, attention from parents, etc. But birthdays were different. My mom always did such a good job of making each of our birthdays special days, our very own day when we were the center of attention and got to do special things like sit in the front seat of the car, choose the meals for the day, and not have to do chores. This was an even bigger task for those of us (FOUR) with August birthdays: it would have been SO much easier to just bundle us all together for one, big dinner/party, but I'm so grateful that, even by the time my day (the last of the month) finally came around, everyone still pretended to get excited about pulling out the birthday banner and eating another cake--or cheese cake, as the case might have been. We never had a lot of money for presents, so that's not what I grew to love about my day--I like having the extra attention and feeling special--and my family (and husband now) do a great job of that.
It's good I grew up not getting used to getting expensive, lavish birthday presents, since we can't afford them now anyway. But, just once in awhile, like today, there are things I REALLY wish I could put on my birthday list. Remember
this post about how several electronic things around our house were biting the dust? The third one revealed itself today: our computer. I knew this day was coming. In fact, I had a weird feeling that I needed to back up all of our pictures and documents onto the external hard drive yesterday, and today the thing won't even boot up! It's not that big of a mystery; all the signs were pointing to this day coming sooner or later, but we were just hoping that "later" would really be closer to the time we were moving and had a job and could afford to get the home computer we REALLY want.
A few weeks ago, I read a comic from theoatmeal.com called
"The 3 Phases of Owning a Computer." (If you are at all offended by the words "testicles," "porn," or "cockwaffle," you probably don't want to read it yourself, so I'll summarize:)
Phase 1: Honeymoon
Your computer is amazing and better than anything you've ever had before!
Phase 2: The Comfortable Phase
You are tight with your computer and are the only one who knows how to make it work well.
Phase 3: Behold, the Dinosaur
(This is the part that I could really relate to It was funny a few weeks ago, but now it's reality!)
The computer is always "thinking" and making noises, takes forever to boot up, and you are afraid to ever turn it off for fear that it might not turn back on.
My poor, poor, prehistoric PC. You just had to go and die on my birthday eve, didn't you? I really, really, really want to go pick out a new iMac for my birthday, charging it to my future self, but maybe taking the fossil down to be recycled and doing my part to "go green" will help me feel better. Besides, didn't I just finish writing all about how grateful I am that birthdays can be special, even without all the stuff?
For now, I'll just have to make due with this laptop. My blog might suffer, especially since Stephen is back to actually going to class this semester and will need to take the computer with him. Who knows? Maybe I'll get creative and start posting from my iPhone. I'll do my best to keep up, but I'm now back to having to share---but NOT on my birthday!